Tuesday, August 16, 2011

I'm worried and hoping he says something...?

So my crush is trusting me a little more...at least I think. He's shy. I am too which is why I can understand his isms and such better than most I believe. My only concern I have with him is the fact that he never initiates reaching out to me. Although anytime I send him anything he responds back rather quickly and I don't think I get on his nerves. (Me thinking I'm on his nerves is my own shy...ism that I do that I probably shouldn't do. ) ANYWAY, I wrote this blog and I quoted something philosophical that he said in it. Before I posted it, I asked him if I can use it in my blog. (it gave me an excuse to text him AND I wanted him to feel comfortable knowing that I will always check in with him for stuff like that.) He responded back 15 minutes later asking where he could follow my blogs. (I don't want to admit a big smile went across my face but it did.) I waited like 5 minutes before I told him because my blog space is a mess: there's a bunch of poetry and one other blog on there...nothing too bad. I told him where it was but waited till I knew he would be heading to his evening cl so he wouldn't have been able to check it right away. (I really needed to clean up some stuff.) ANd no, I think 2 other people know that I have this thing out there so when I created this website about 1 year ago...i didn't care what poetry I had out there. Oh and yes he said I can quote him. SO I hurried home and and deleted some poems.... I put the blog in question at the top of the blog page and then remove some that I thought were questionable. None of the ones I deleted were bad but some were when I was in a sad depressy state so I removed some of those and there was one about a ped crush from 2 years ago that I removed. THat was it. ANd when I say sad depressy...think Edgar Allen Poe. SOOO anyway, I think he will like the blog but if he saw any of the ones I have deleted I'm going to be worried about how he will see it. I'm just nervous waiting on my crush to respond on what he read. This all happened last night around 5:30 sooo I'm hoping he will respond today or tomorrow. But my quesiton is, will he say something? How long should I wait to ask him about it? SHould I ask at all? I'm nervous about how he sees my stuff. What do you all think.

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