Thursday, August 18, 2011

Did I choose the right guy?

2 years ago I was in a really controlling relationship and I would pray every night for God to send me someone that it was just easy to be with. Someone who didn't want reign over aspect of my life. Low and behold he did. I started hanging out with a whole new group of people and there were two guys that I was interested in. I became really close to all of them and I was definitly more attracted to a guy named Brad. He was kind of a bad boy and for some reason that really attracted me. He had a great personality and we really hit it off. Then there was this guy named Adam. He was fresh into the game because he had never really dated anyone and he was shy. Which also attracted me. I got to know both of them pretty well and I ended up choosing Adam. He had never had a "real" girlfriend and I thought it might be a good change to date the nice guy for once. Well we were together for a year pretty steadily and he was everything to me. We broke up ever now and then for stupid reasons and every time we did Brad was there for me. He comforted me and tried to protect me from the things that everyone else said Adam was capable of. He was just being a good friend. He never EVER made a move on me but was always there to make sure I was okay. I had heard that Adam was a liar and would eventually break my heart. That one day he would just up and leave me. I never believed it because we really loved each other, but one day he did. He left me for no reason and like I said before that was a year ago. When it happened Brad was there for me and told me that I could do much better without him and he was just there as a friend and we did fun things together to take my mind off of Adam. He again never tried to take advantage of me. Since Adam and I have been apart he has lied to me numerous times but all over something small and insignificant. We were still romantic together and he calls almost everyday but says he doesn't want to be with me? Now Brad and I rarely talk because I have continued to let Adam treat me the way he does and I have chosen him all over again. I want to wait for Adam and see if he will come around but I don't think he ever will. Now I think I was meant to be with Brad. I'm so confused and hurt right now that I need someone who only has vague details to give me their opinion. Please, someone, tell me what to do.

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